Happy Birthday Baby Sister

Happy Birthday 25th Angie. I hope you are having a great day.

A Morning with Madison

it's been 3 weeks and Madison is still so excited to go to school
pigtails is her favorite hair style

breakfast - blueberry nutrigrain bar in her school parking lot
she will not eat at home, she says she's not hungry

She loves the monkey bars and is so excited that    she can get to the 2nd or 3rd bar

Madison and Bernice - The Class Bear

Since the 2nd day of school Madison has been not so patiently waiting to take one of the class bears home from school. Today was finally her turn. She is so excited.

Madison gave Bernice tons of hugs

Huge smiles all day

after a long day of playing, dress-up, and reading with Madison, Bernice,
and Daddy Bear were ready for bed.

Happy Birthday Cameron

Happy 5th Birthday to my nephew Cameron

i hope all your wishes come true

2010 - 11

I dropped the boys off at there jr highs - no problem. They were ready to be back in school. Or, is it I was ready for them to be back? Either way, we've done this the last 9 years, they are in 8th grade, so like I said no problem. Then Madison and I drive to her school, get there about 10 minutes too early, but we had a place to park. We sat in the car for a few minutes and just talked, not really about anything. Then it was time o head in. I this great plan, we had read the Kissing Hand last night, and I was going to give her, a kissing hand. I try to tell her that I love her and... I just couldn't, tears were welling up. I didn't want to loose it and make her loose it (not that I think she would, she was so excited). So I just kiss her palm, calmed myself down, and off we went. She said Hi to her teacher, played on the playground for a few minutes, lined up, I grabbed a hug and kiss, and she went right inside. No big drama scene. No teary break down. Just one very happy girl.

I love how nice they look the first day
no holes in the jeans
the boys showered
Madison let me put her hair up

This is Zac - not seen very often here
he's not a fan of my camera
so no real smile
he also 13 so the real smiles are harder to find :)

And here's Austin
he's getting better about letting me take pics
I love the messenger bag
how handsome is he?

And Madison, she picked out a new first day of school outfit
she also had a back pack full of the school supplies that she didn't really need
but i could resist - barbie folders and notebooks, markers, crayons...
and the smile never left her face,
i picked her up 5 hours ago and she is still talking about school,
the songs they sang, her friend parker, the playground, dancing...
I'm really happy she had such a great day.

So day one was great. The kids go up on time, they looked cute, and they were happy. School was more then just "fine". I hope this is the start to great year for all 3 of them.

meeting ms. kindergarten

Madison and I went to her Ice-cream Social / Meet the Teacher tonight at her elementary school. She considered it her first day of school, wore her first day of school clothes, and shoes, and was lucky enough to have Aunt Angie do a great first day of school hair style. She was a little disappointed when she figured out that she didn't actually have school. She is super excited to start tomorrow though.

Madison with Ms Kindergarten
the red lei is for her to wear to school tomorrow
so all the teachers know that she is a kingergartener
and to help her out if she needs it.
what a great idea :)

Madi - being Madi
she doesn't seem the least bit nervous
she is beyond excited
I hope she loves school

My beautiful girl
it's hard to believe she is starting school already
I would love another year (or 2,3,4...) of her home

Ready...Set...

Scrapbooking

I've been scrapping. I love scrapbooking, but rarely take the time to get everything out (knowing i will just have to put it all away again) But the last few kits at Simply Obsessed we too awesome to not use. I have never posted a scrapbook page so excuse the photos ( i know they stink).

This is from SO's July kit - so adorablle
the pictures are the first time J and I saw Madison swim without floaties

This is from SO's August Kit - I love the colors, they are so beautiful
the picture should look familiar - maybe a post or 2 ago, this was the perfect kit to scrap it

This is from SO title challenge - different letters for the title
 This is a combination of SO kits, and again recently posted pictures

I hope to be able to scrapbook more often. My working world is changing and I should have a lot more free time.

Almost there

Madison at Kindergarten Screening, she did great. She had an hour and a half of a mock day in Kindergarten. She loved it and can not wait to go longer.  

Austin before 8th registration. 8th grade already? where do the years go? I promised I wouldn't embarrass him bring my camera to registration if he let me take a few pictures before.

Zac is going back to GPLC and didn't have anything today so he was just along for the ride, i didn't have anything to threaten embarrassment, but he also agreed to a few pictures too  

They are growing up way too fast, i'm excited for the oppertunities ahead, but i still wish there was a way slow everything down so i can just enjoy them at this age a little longer.

Monsoon Smiles

Madison testing out her hand-me-down umbrella

she is loving this weather

she decided to play in the rain, without her umbrella

she told me she was shaking off - "like a wet dog" :)

she is having so much fun - we should really consider moving somewhere it rains a little more

more shaking off

i love these smile; pure, simple, happiness

Getting Ready

J and I had been promising Madison that we would start back to school shopping soon. Soon ended up being Saturday, we took her to the mall, and Sunday to Target. Here are a few of my favorite finds...

This is a start to Madison's stuff. She had a blast trying on clothes, modeling for daddy, and hearing Daddy tell her how beautiful she is. She took 20 minutes picking out the lunch box, it was such a hard choice. Backpack shopping is going to be so much fun - really, i love it.

  

these are from Target, so cute.

another Target find, Madison was ok with these because they have a "heel". can you see the sole of the shoe is a little tiny bit bigger in the back. ; )

last Target shoe find, Madison has the Sketchers twinkle toes and loved that Target had there own version

 

these are from Justice, I love them

This outfit (Justice) looks so cute on Madison.

And this one (Justice) makes her look so grown up, but also very cute.

These are Austin's - he didn't want to go shopping so he is stuck with what I pick, and oh my gosh he looks so handsome in these. He will need several more pair of jeans but i needed to make sure I was getting the right size, and shoes

and these are Zac's - he wasn't with us either and unfortunatly these jean have already had to be handed over to Austin (way too short). Zac may not have a choice but to come shopping once just to get jeans.

So that was round one. Not too bad, it's a good start. I remember loving "back to school" shopping with my mom and dad when I was a kid, it must be a girl thing, the boys have no interest. I'm glad I have Madison enjoying it with as a parent.

Happy Memorial Day

Thank you to all the men and women that have served, are serving, or will be serving our country. You are forever in our thoughts and prayers.

toothless

Madison lost her second tooth

Thursday May 27

Right before dinner

Which was hamburgers and hotdogs, and corn on the cob – her favorite.

Tough to eat when one is toothless

But she made it work.

And thanks to my Kodak Play we can all squirm thru, I mean watch J extracting said tooth. GAG!!! Enjoy…

Terrified

I started this post, mentally last year, actually writing it May 28, months before school starts. Sitting at my desk at work with tears streaming down my cheeks.

I’ll start with saying that I do have an older (handsome, smart, funny…) son that is already in school, Jr. High; yes he survived, and yes he is happy. I understand the logic. But that does not make this any easier. I am terrified of the idea that Madison will be starting school this year.

I have thousands of reason. Some sane and lots of insane mommy reason - like, she just needs me (or maybe it’s I just need her). I don’t want her to be scared or frustrated or hurt or sad or… I think you get it. I think she got a pretty crappy start in this world and deserves nothing but happiness now and forever (remember I said insane mommy reasoning).

I know she will love being in school. She wants nothing more then to make lots of friends. She will be happy (and maybe sad, scared, frustrated… and that she will be ok). I know she is waiting to soak everything in. I know all of this. I’m still terrified.

I didn’t want her to start out being labeled, you know the “sick kid”, or the “cancer kid” she has been cancer free for 3 ½ years. J and talked about not even saying anything to the school since she was released medically with no school restrictions. I agreed, until I went in the gymnasium during the tour of the school, and one of the gym walls is a rock wall. Yep, a 4-5 foot high rock wall. I spilled. She is labeled. She will have restriction placed by mom – no harness free rock wall climbing. Let me explain, the cancer is not my biggest concern anymore. My concern is the hole the cancer left in my daughter spinal cord (c1 – t2 for the medical types out there). This hole promised to put my daughter in a wheel chair twice, both of her tumor resections. This hole promised additional surgeries including removing 2 of my daughter’s ribs to fuse to the vertebrae to assist in holding her head up. This hole cause Madison’s neurosurgeon to be amazed every 6 months that she is still holding her head up on her own. So yes, this hole forces this mom take some extra precautions to make sure Madison is safe. I won’t be there to protect her.

I am scared that she will get hurt. I’m scared that she will have her feelings hurt. I’m scared that she will be scared.

Remember me?

Terrified.

WAR

Yesterday, there was a small war going on between Madison and the Boys. A war of the signs. It started with the boys closing the door, in Madison’s face, and not letting her in their room. So the brilliant mom that I am had Madison get a pen and piece of paper and her create this…



Translation, for those that do not speak/read Madison – NO BrOtHErS ALLOWEd. And a picture of mean scary mom, because, she told me, sometime I am mean. She felt better. Better, until she saw the Boys retaliation sign…

NO 5 YEAR OLDS ALLOWED IN DIS (yes it said dis) ROOM. She was crushed. She told me her day was ruined and that she had the meanest brothers in the whole world. I gave her lots hugs and kisses and tried to explain that her brothers must have thought her sign was cool to make one for their door. She was still crushed.

Maybe 15 minutes later, she has me follow her to look at “something”. I followed her back to her brothers’ closed do to find that she had crossed off the 5 on the Boys sign and fixed it with a 12 (the age of both Boys). She was so please with herself. She opened the door to let the boys know that they were not allowed in their room anymore, and walked away satisfied.

I had to go to work, but I heard the war is continuing while I am away. I couldn’t wait to get home and see the newest creations. I had been texted that Madison’s includes that she is 5 years old and that she is a princess, both completely true. I don’t know if the Boys are still tormenting Madison playing along or not.

Edit: I came home to several new signs. My favorite: REMEMBER I AM ONLY 5 YRS OLD. I say that to her brothers all the time.

Mother's Day

For Mother's Day this year J and the kids got me a Kodak Play Sport. I love it. I love the videos of the kids. I love that we can take it in the pool. I hoping this summer I will get videos of Madison learning to swim. I hoping Austin warms up to having videos made of him.

One of the best things have been Madison "sneaking" it to her room and make videos were no one is watching her. Her real thoughts. I love going thru the videos and find her singing, or talking about her day. J has warned me several times that if she drops it I won't be able to take it to the pool because it could break the seals. After finding this (posted below) video I told him it is worth the risk. She can "sneak" the camera when ever she wants.
I cried watching this one.